Okay... this is going to be a whopper of a post... here we go.
So school began with a great start for myself on Sept.6. I was making new friends, loving my classes, and being an average freshman. There was this new girl too. "Sally" (simplicity sake). She seemed really "chill" and cool. I had initially met her at a party over the summer and I thought she was a really funny person. On the first day, I introduced my self and we hung out. We were in different art classes, but by Friday of that week I had switched into sculpture, so we were in the same one. She was excited and so was I. We helped on projects and were two normal friends. Then stuff started to happen.
Apparently, people were making fun of her for hanging out with me. I took it all in stride, but then people started to make fun of me for hanging out with her. Apparently, in the 21st century, a girl and a guy cant be friends with out some-how being dating. It wasn't true at all. I didn't like her and she liked another kid at our school anyways. Eventually, she got tired of all of the crap and started to distance herself from hanging out with me. She, would make fun of me, in front of other people so it looked like she hated me. I kind of understood so, I made fun of her. It escalated and escalated. Kind of like in Much Ado About Nothing-- the two lovers make fun of each other 24/7 to show how much they hate each other, when really they were friennds. I grew tired of this fighting and told her. She didn't care. She just listened to all her friends and didn't hang out with me--or want to.
So finally, I asked her why and she said I am annoying... i didn't really get this comment so I brushed it off. I admit, I am impulsive and had said things to her i shouldn't have said, and I now feel like carp, but that is behind me. So, trying to be her friend again, I went to a football game that she couldn't go to and got her one of the free bags they were handing out to the first 100 guests. I texted her that "I got it" and she said we are almost good.
I came into school that Monday gave her the bag, but she still ignored me. I didn't get it? I went out of my way to do something nice, and still, im on your ignore list. i was getting tired of this. I was sick of other people making her hate me. Ever heard "Reputation's Ruin"? Well that was what I felt like. I just wanted to be her friend but other people thought I was weird. Lastly, On our PL day ( PL=Peer Leadership= Seniors from our school take us out for a field day to be friends with us) I kinda snapped. She kept ignoring. So, i called her loser, over and over ( I know, Its not how you handle this type of situation) and tool. I felt terrible about this and later i tried to apologize.
She blew me off and said I am wired and don't have friends and annoying and mean. I just felt depressed and knew I would never get out of this hole.
I don't get it. I was that kid that was nice to you from the start. And 3 weeks later you won't even talk to me. She ignores me at school. I just want to to apologize. I'm sorry for what I did.
Ugh.... any suggestions guys?
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Overall, I am sorry for what I, If anything, I did. "sally", please forgive me as I forgive you...
